It is crazy how fast these kids grow up! Tucker's 4 months now and hit a big milestone recently with rolling from back to front. He usually toots when he rolls too. Takes some major ab flexing to get over! Now that he's mastered rolling, he will not stay on his back. He's on his tummy all day and he loves it. He's always loved tummy time. Now he just gets frustrated that he can't crawl.

Tucker also started laughing a lot lately and I pretty much spend all day trying to get a laugh out of him. It's the best.

I think he might start teething soon because he can not keep his hands out of his mouth and he's drooling constantly. He loves to chew on everything and bites hard!

I love this little guy so much and it's so fun watching him grow and change every day.

This past month has not been without its challenges, though. I've now had two plugged milk ducts. They're so awful! Luckily, I discovered them early and was able to get each out within hours, but they're so stressful because if you don't clear them, you risk mastitis. They're such a pain to get out because you have to massage the heck out of your breast during feedings, which is annoying to the baby, and both painful and exhausting to me. Tucker's also starting to get way distracted during feedings. I stopped opening the curtains even, but sometimes he still can't keep his attention on eating. He almost always has at least one distracted feeding a day. Breastfeeding has been way harder than I thought it would be. I really think it's one of the most selfless things a mother can do for her baby.

Tucker also really struggles with sleep. He's always been super alert and active, since day one, and seems to never want to sleep. He's in bed from about 7:30 p.m. to 6:30 a.m. but he wakes three times to feed, only sleeping for about 2 hour stretches in between. Luckily he goes right back to sleep after feeding, but I feel like the sleep deprivation is really taking its toll. But since he had his feeding problems when he was first born, I'm always worried about him getting enough food, so I don't really want to sleep train or not feed him at night quite yet. I wouldn't mind feeding him once, or even twice, if only he would sleep 4-5 hour stretches instead of 2. If you have any suggestions of what helped your baby sleep better, please let me know!

Tyler's been gone a lot too with school. He's trying to stay more on top of his school work this year, rather than cramming. He's got boards too next summer, so with all his extra studying I don't feel like I see him very much. It leads to a lot of lonely days. I love my time with Tucker every day, but I miss having adult time too.

I can't complain though. Even though having a baby has been a huge adjustment for me, I count my blessings that I do have a healthy baby and an amazing husband.

I feel like things have finally calmed down a little in my life. Tucker's getting older and is much easier to manage. He hardly ever cries now and is a lot of fun! He's 3 months old and is taking this growing up thing serious. He now holds his head up without many wobbles, grabs objects and of course puts them right in his mouth, laughs, and rolls from front to back! It's so fun watching him grow and develop and especially fun the more he interacts.

Tyler had a busy mini-semester in July that's technically the beginning of his 2nd year of med school. He had a pathology and pharmacology class. He was gone a lot as it's a sped up semester and he had to spend a lot of time studying quickly. He passed though! Pharmacology is apparently one of the worst classes in med school so he's glad he passed and got it over with.

Tyler had a few days off until fall semester started and his sister Jamie came out to visit. It was a lot of fun hanging out with her and we're glad she got to spend time with Tucker.

 First swim! He wasn't too sure about it.

 Love his cute little body

Little stud hangin out at the beach

I feel like I'm getting a lot more used to being a mom. The days aren't so stressful for me now that we're getting into a routine and Tucker's more predictable. Right now he's feeding 6 times during the day and about 2 times at night. He takes 4 naps that are about 45 minutes each. He still only sleeps about 3-4 hour stretches at night but sometimes he'll surprise me with a 6 or 7 hour stretch. I think I'm more concerned with him getting enough food than with my sleep so I don't mind getting up.

It's such a different life being a mom than working. I don't miss teaching or the regular stress of any job, but caring for a baby is a lot more work than I thought it would be. I'm going all day and night, but somehow I have the energy to do it. And I love it. I feel so happy with my little family.